hmmm

So it's finally the weekends. Finally!

I know I have heaps of homework to do especially for english & I really should start working on the modern history assignments. But that's fine cz I enjoy modern history.

Not much happening really. Just school and yeah. I REALLY need to work on math for the exams bcz I'm just not getting it. Some of it, yes. But not most of it i can tell you.

Anyway I might update later if i feel like it but that's just it for now.

~Toodles.

so..

Second day of school and the last day of school for english. Fantastic. Awesome. But I have an assessment task next week on a film everyone have watched 3 times while it was my first time today.

Fantastic.

It's an essay. Haha. An essay. According to my english teacher, I'm horrible at essays. Grammar is poor and apparently she couldn't even mark my last essay bcz it was so frustrating to read. Well you know what lady? You can go shove it up your ass bcz even if you're my english teacher, you suck at what you do. Horrible. Worse english teacher I've ever had. So do us all a favor & please get a job at another school or get pregnant again. Whatever. I don't care. As long as I don't have you as a teacher anymore. Especially for my HSC.

Lol. I bitch about my english teacher too much. Maybe bcz she sucks too much. Maybe she's too much of a bitch. I'm doing it again aren't I?

Anyway, I shall move away from the subject of the bitch & talk about my day. Tomorrow is a friend's birthday & she's turning 17. How exciting seriously! Just a month ago I turned 16 & she's already hitting a bigger number.

So two of my other friends decided to go to the Plaza after school & buy a few things. So we got Zappos which are her favourite lollies. Hubba Bubba which is her favourite bubblegum. A bubble blower. Warm bed "cocks" lol. Suppose to be socks, guess the facotry did a typo but yeah. Ummm a card. And last of all an mn'm dispenser like those gumball machines. Also, tomorrow a friend is going to go pick up flowers and a Happy birthday balloon. But the best surprise is the delivery of these presents :D

Our home room teacher is a PE teacher and I have to admit he's pretty cute. The birthday girl gets along with him quite well & they're always teaching each other. Not in the lovey-dovey way but a bit like flirting. Nothing illegal though haha.

Anyway we're going to go early in the morning to ask him to give the presents to her during homerooms. Haha. That's actually quite unexpected but we thought it would be fun to sit back & watch. She's going to kill us but hey, so worth it. Especially since it's her. Great friends aren't we?

Yeah I know we are. lol

I can't wait. I hope he actually does do it. Would be so awesome!

Damn, I have math homework I have to do but my procrastination is consuming me. I think I have a double of it tmrw as well. Oh yay! Like sooooooo fun. NOT! Well i prefer over english any day! I should probably go start it now. =(

~Toodles.

cries

So yeah. I feel like crying right now. I don't know why. Maybe it's bcz I have this lonely feeling inside of me these days. It's really getting to me though.

I feel so lonely. Even though I'm in a house full of people, it feels like it's just me. I guess it's bcz everyone seems to have someone. Me? No. Of course not. I sound so emo. Hell, i feel so emo. School is just a big drag for me with that bitch for an english teacher and expectations everywhere.

I have an ancient history assessment tmrw and all i've done is written notes. I am definitely going to go well. I know that for sure. I just feel so stressed out but the thing is, there's not much to be so stressed out about. I guess that is another additional factor as to why I hate myself so much right now.

Another thing, I have never felt so dumb before. Everyone seems to be so naturally smart. Me? Everyone thinks me as smart. A nerd you can call it. No, I'm not. I just force myself to study so hard and practically pluck my brains out. I'm sick of it. I am so sick of it. People seem to glide through school with out a problem and still get the good marks. I struggle almost every day, I get good marks but if I let myself go. Everything is just fucked. Fucked. Fucked. Fucked. I can say that word endlessly right now but what help would that be?

Today was the first day back in coming to school. Everything's the same. Nothing's changed. The school is a bit different physically but that's about it.

And yet never have I felt so alone before. I think I'm gonna cry myself to sleep tonight again. I hate it. I hate it. I'm sick of it. So much envy within when i see people walk past me with a genuine smile on their faces. If you see me at school, you'd probably think I was wearing one too. Fooled you. And fooled everyone that knows me. Mum, Dad, Sister, brothers. Fooled you all. Friends, strangers who don't even know me. Hah. Fooled you too.

I feel like such a failure. Why am I the one with the thick legs, the big head, the dumb thing you call a brain? Why? I feel so shit. I know there are other people out there suffering 10000 times more than I am. So why? Why do you let other people get on with their lives with out a worry in the world and give people the crap that is so unevenly shared? Hah. So why?

So emo. I know. And no it's not that time of the month. I just feel so alone. I don't know why. I don't know why. Am I too spoilt? Am I too selfish? Am I too self-centred? I know I am but I can;t help this feeling. It's there. Always floating in and around me. Everywhere. And just when nobody's there, it shows. It shows. It consumes me. It consumes me to the point where I just feel like a wasted piece of meat. And the fact that i feel this way with out some REAL problem in life, is what pisses me off. But as I have already said. I can't help it. I just feel so alone. It feels cold. No warmth. No sun. Nothing. Even the night sky is accompanied with the moon and the stars. I have no one. No one I can just be with. No one I can just be myself with when ever I want.

It feels cold. it feels lonely.

Emo much?

T_T

It is officially the last day of the holidays for us poor students. I am dreading waking up at 7:30 am tmrw!

I have an Ancient History assessment on Wednesday about frescoes... I have been bludging in class lately and omg, this is how I pay for it.

Anyway I have to finish off the book The Kite Runner today & probably study a bit about frescoes even though I have a double period of it tmrw.

To fill up this blog, I'll talk about Saturday which was practically the only day I felt like going out with friends.
It wasn't really planned but a friend called me up in the morning telling me to jump on a train to city and he'll meet me on the carriage. First I lied about my parents not letting me go bcz I initially didn't feel like going. Duh.
But then I thought about it, how I've been cooped up in my house all holidays. Hey, may as well got out for some fresh air!

There was minute till my train arrived & I was still running to the station. While I was running, I also bumped in to a friend who at first didn't recognise me! He looked at me but then thought I was just SOME Asian girl. Gee thanks!

Anyway I was able to make it in time. We rode the train together until it came to his stop.

While on the train, we were absolutely despite eating breakfast already. So when we arrived at the city after a 45 min ride, we walked to Market City meeting with the rest of the friends and hopefully grabbing a bite to eat. Little did we know that they had already eaten while they were waiting for us.
So we made them wait around longer watching US eat. lol I had calamari rings and chips which were disgusting. Such a waste of $8.50 seriously. Thank god one of one of my friends there was a big eater and finished it for me :D

Afterward we walked to Cold Rock where they mashed up yummy flavours of ice cream with other yummy bits and pieces like Oreos, Tim Tams, jelly beans etc. Of course I had White chocolate ice cream mixed with hazelnut chocolate ice cream and then mashed up with butterscotch brittle and Tim Tams. It was delightful. Like all of heaven packed in to one regular size cup lol. Darn, should of took a picture of it!

Anyway then we went for karaoke. We were suppose to go Phoenix but then we heard Green box was haunted so we decided to go there despite my friend being a chicken shit about it.

Karaoke was fun & all.
Oh & I also made my friend lick the microphone while he was singing. It was an accident lol. i was walking over to get to the other side of the couch & accidentally knocked the microphone haha. Yummy!

Later one we just walked around, hanged at the park and yeah. That's when one of my friends that called me up in the morning had to go home early. I had to go with him bcz I always meet the weirdest people on the train when I go alone & also considering the 45 min ride.

So we all said our goodbyes. By the time I got back to the station, it was already dark and had to speed walk to Wooloworths to buy some things. I then called my brother to tell my other brother to pick me up. He took 40 min to get there and then an extra 20 min to buy some things from Woolies. He was lucky I was a patient person that day.

That practically wraps up the highlight of Saturday so yeah. Not that exciting but nothing is anymore -__-.

Just a few random pics from around my half yearly exams. My bro does hospitality at school & wants to be a chef. And I like baking and cooking overall but I am hopeless at it. Like I burnt the pot boiling water. How useless eh?

Anyway these a few pics of my baking creations to relieve some of the stress of studying. Haha, I warn you, they are NOT fun to look at but they were sooo YUMMY. My family killed it in within a day haha.


I made the first two with my older brother. We fought so much and I stuffed up the cake as you can see LOL. At least it was yummy haha. He called me a disgrace to cooking!

the last one with the cookies and muffins were awesome. Made those with my best friend. Doesn't look that good but they were totally yummy lol

Here are some pics of my trips to Max Brenners. Also known as a chocolate cafe YAY.
There's suppose to be strawberries around the last picture but umm yeah, we ate them haha.


Oh and some pics from my birthday!

Balloons my friends tied together from my surprise birthday party at school
And Ice cream from Mounties that night and a birthday cake when we got back to my sister's.
My birthday was three weeks ago so this a bit late but oh well! Btw, the cake was mango flavoured! YUM!

That's all for now.
~Toodles.

Oh yeah and an extra for fun.

NOOO!

It's the second last day of holiday! NOOOO!

I have to finish reading a book for english; The Kite Runner.
I know it's a very popular book but I hate my english teacher so much that I don't even want to read this. Lol I know, stupid reason but she is the biggest Snob ever! Okay I am over-exaggerating but she is a snob.

English teachers are suppose to be open-minded to their student's opinions and point of views.
No, not this one. If she doesn't like or agree what you contributed, she would give you that "wtf?" look and then say "Okayyy... *chuckles*... so yeah. I actually think blah blah blah. Anyone else?"

She pisses me off so much! Practically the whole class hates her. I love it when we purposely ignore her lol I feel so mean and slack but every time I think about her teaching my class. The guilt just slides off my shoulders.

This one time:
English teacher: "So yeah what do you guys thing about this? I personally think blah blah blah. What about you guys?"
Class: "......"

English teacher: "Come on! It's not like I'm going to eat you!"
Class: "......*silence*....."

English teacher: "Am I just a dead body in the front of the class room or something?! You guys are ignoring me! BLAH BLAH BLAH"


Class: "..... *silence*....."


ROFL. Sounds mean but my gosh she makes us feel like crap when we answer and she disagrees. So that's mainly why we don't answer her. I know we're gonna get bad marks but we can NOT stand her. ARGHHHHH! I dread english all the time it's not even funny.

Anyway, I'm gonna end my bitching for today.

~Toodles.

Ugh,

Hey all.
It's not like anyone is going to be reading my blog but I haven't been mentally or physically stable these past two weeks, so I thought would start up a blog just to record some stuff down for my own benefit.

Okay, holidays are almost over and it feels like everything has rushed by so quickly. I haven't accomplished ANYTHING and it feels so... wasted.
I was sick for the first week and OMFG! Pain all around. I was so sore. I couldn't stand up. Sore throat and the list goes on.

On Friday of the first week, my new nephew entered the world! :D

His name is Ha Cao Danh in Vietnamese obviously. And we decided to name him Damien for english. Damien Ha. Has a nice ring to it I reckon. We thought we should choose a long name since his last name is short. lol 1 syllable. Some people were skeptical on the name Damien but they can all stfu because I don't care about their opinion. This is MY brother's son, MY nephew. Not theirs. haha I sound like such a bitch. He is absolutely adorable! He's very small too weighing only 2.5 kg. Haha I get scared of carrying him because he seems so fragile.

I think this blog is gonna be pretty long bcz I'll probably be summing up my two week holiday that is nearing it's end.
Lol, I don't think I'll be starting from the first day but just random highlights that I can remember.


Well I finished the Mortal Instrument trilogy. I like books but I'm not those hardcore readers. I try to be but nah, never works out. I usually read books that have been recommended.
Anyway the Mortal Instrument series was REALLY good. took me just over two weeks to finish all three books. Pretty good considering my standards for books and time frames lol.

MUCH better than Twilight. I do admit I was one of those twilight people before but not like those EDWARRRRRRD! MARRYYYYY MEEE! Hell no. I was never like that I can happily confess.

City of Bones, City of Ash and lastly City of Glass were extremely good books. If I had to pick one I enjoyed the least, it would probably have to be City of Ash bcz it was, well, it was the book that built up to the final blow of secrets, betrayal and unforgivable pasts. So nothing was really revealed and made me go *GASPS* like the other books but I guess that's the main purpose of being the middle book in a trilogy. It was very enjoyable to read but I was only mentioning my LEAST enjoyable book in that series.

I Love Cassandra Clare. These books she wrote created this new world in my head and I loved every bit of it from the beautiful blood-sucking vampires to the partying warlocks. It was just a superb journey & wished that it never ended. It has a combination on fantasy/romance/comedy.
Planning to re-read it after I'm done with the Yearly exams at school. Can't wait.

This is the website for The Mortal Instruments Trilogy: www.mortalinstruments.com/

I've watched a number of things over the last three weeks. I watched the Proposal starring Sandra Bullock & Ryan Reynolds. It was actually quite good. I didn't expect much and neither did my best friend. Some parts of it was just hilarious and Wow! They treat us girls to a scene of Ryan stripping his clothes off which quickly followed by another hilarious scene with Sandra.

I have to add that Sandra looks great for her age. She maintains such a great physique.


Transformers 2: Revenge of the Fallen was another movie I watched. My sister and brother in-law took me along with her co-worker which was their second time watching it. Apparently the first time they watched it, was in iMax and was hard to watch because the screen was so huge. So they decided to go for a second round of the movie after I complained that they left me & didn't take me to the iMax lol.

We went to Parramatta Westfields in a GMax cinema. It was a school night and the movie started at 9:30 pm which ended at 12:30 am. During the 2nd half of the movie I started to nod off despite the BOOMS! and CRASHES! going on. My sister started laughing bcz she was watching my head fall and then bounce back up after realising I had nodded off.

Anyway it was most definitely an action-packed movie. It got confusing during the fighting bcz it was hard to differentiate who was who. The special effects was just insane. The director put so much effort in to it which over-compensated for the weak plot. He also had no problem emphasizing on Megan Fox's hot body. Guys would totally LOVE this movie. I enjoyed it also despite me falling asleep here and there lol.



Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince I also watched. It was pretty shit compared to the other movies in the series. It was a cliff-hanger which is something I don't like. On a good note, it was still enjoyable with the realistic special effects and beautiful sceneries. However, Daniel Radcliffe's acting was pretty poor. Emma Watson is very pretty and Ron (sorry, can't remember his name) is cute in a dorky way. In the end though, the movie wasn't that it for me but I guess it was juts building up to the final movie.

FINALLY, my all time favourite! It's a Korean drama and also a remake of the Japanese, Taiwan and Chinese versions. Also based on an extremely popular manga; Hana Yori Dango.


English name: Boys Before Flowers. I loved loved loved it. The guys were especially cute! KIM BUM! haha anyway, it was very enjoyable. A lot of the bits you just wanted to rewind and play three times over. Especially Kim Bum's smile! This image doesn't really justify the boy's hot/cuteness but they still look adorable never the less. I AM going to re-watch this after I can get it back from my sister. For all you K-drama lovers out there; I totally recommend this. It was so fun to watch and sometimes heartbreaking as well.
I must also add that there are so many good-looking people in here including bother genders! Probably plastic surgery but still. Good looking never the less.

I really like the golden hair boy. Haha also known as Ji Hoo in the drama but his real name is Kim Hyun Joong. You can NOT hate this guy. He's a character that probably every girl dream of but he's not the main male actor but you love him anyway. Well actually, you love everyone in F4. That means the hilarious gangster guy as well lol.

Kim Hyun Joong: Kim Bum:

Here's a sexy photo of Kim Bum :D :


That's it for now. Not really my holidays but my least boring highlights of the holidays of which I can remember lol. I'll be updating soon!

~Toodles.